Not Giving In

Hey, I'm Christina! I have anxiety, depression, in SH recovery. I haven't self-harmed since April 9th, 2014. I've also had experience with PTSD, sexual abuse, and suicidal thoughts and ideation. If you ever want to talk, I'm here for you and my ask is always open! Stay strong, lovelies.

awildteenagegirl:

recoverywillsaveus:

I used to watch SVU when I was younger and had no problem sitting through marathons of it, but now I can’t stand more than a minute. That word makes me feel so uncomfortable, especially bc they say it so much and sometimes I get triggered. Still, Olivia Benson is the shit.

My parents told me that I’m not allowed to watch SVU, for fear that it triggers me. I went a good two weeks without it after my therapist suggested doing so. I found myself getting triggered more by not watching than I had by watching it. I’ve watched this show for about four years now. I’ve always felt like I had Olivia Benson and Elliot Stabler there on my side whenever I remember the abuse, assault, and rape that I’ve suffered. I found that I felt safe watching SVU, as if nobody could hurt me because Olivia and Elliot where there to protect me.

Needless to say, I have started watching SVU again when my parents aren’t around or when I’m in my room.

I’m glad it helps you. :)

(Source: waken-thou-with-me)

Anonymous asked: How do you make suicidal thoughts go away? What's wrong with me?

Suicidal feelings take a long time to get through. Try to do what you can to take care of yourself. Get out of bed, shower,
Get dressed. Do what you can, but don’t push yourself too far. Talk to someone you trust that won’t judge you and let them know what you’re feeling. See a therapist to work through it all, maybe get a prescription for antidepressants or whatever else you might need. Having suicidal thoughts does not mean you have to act out on them.
There is nothing wrong with you. Many people have been suicidal, many people live through it, and it is not someone’s fault for feeling that way. You are not weak, or bad, or unworthy of life. You have been holding on for so long, being so strong through all the bad that’s happened, and now you need to take time for yourself. Please never hesitate to ask for help, you are worthy and loved, and so many people would miss you if you were gone.

Anonymous asked: I'm so depressed. I just want to hurt myself.

I know it’s really difficult to get through the feelings of utter hopelessness and emptiness, but pls remember that hurting yourswlf does not help. If anything, it only makes it worse. It is a horrible coping skill and once you start, the more tou want to do it, and the more you feel you need to do even more to get the same effect. Please hang in love. Try some different, positive coping skills. You can always ask me, anon or not. I love you. Please don’t hurt yourself.

Don’t cry over spilt milk

—but also, don’t cry over a plate of pasta, or a bar of chocolate, or a bowl of cereal. Food is for eating, it is not for crying over. (via metamorphosisofmeg)

(via recoveringolivia)

recordsandcigarettes:

1-indsey:


The only known video footage of Anne Frank

I can’t think of any reason why someone would not reblog this. 
If this isn’t interesting/sad to you, then I don’t know what you like in life.

Can’t we hit 1,000,000 notes? This is such a rare shot, everyone should see it.

recordsandcigarettes:

1-indsey:

The only known video footage of Anne Frank

I can’t think of any reason why someone would not reblog this. 

If this isn’t interesting/sad to you, then I don’t know what you like in life.

Can’t we hit 1,000,000 notes? This is such a rare shot, everyone should see it.

(Source: belledefleur, via live--optimistically)

You can’t spend the rest of your life being afraid of people rejecting you, and you have to start by not rejecting yourself, you don’t deserve it. From now on, people can either accept you for who you are or they can fuck off.

—Kester, My Mad Fat Diary (via laughing-treees)

(Source: donughs, via finding-happiness-in-the-dark)